Anxiety!
It’s about a little after 11pm and I’m doing several things at once right now but taking a break to gather some thoughts. This being only my second post, I’m sure anyone reading this cannot get a good idea of who I am or why I’m doing this. Well, really, do we need a reason to do a blog? Not really but I think everyone does have one. For me, it’s more of a thing I want to do to just see how much I’m willing to throw out there and see what kind of reaction I get. I haven’t told anyone about this but I’m sure I will. Susan will probably be the first person I tell… hi Suz! 
Anyway, at this moment I’m kinda waiting for Susan to call me back. We didn’t talk much today or shall I say email today. We didn’t get a chance to even come close to our 20 emails per person quota! But I’m sure she’s either on the phone or has something going on. She says she doesn’t have much of a social life but I disagree, she’s quite the social event organizer, as I call her.
She means the world to me and to elaborate on that right now is kinda premature so I’ll just leave it that for now.
I got back from Nashville a few days ago and since I’ve been back I feel like my life is getting ready to take a drastic turn. I shouldn’t be suprised, I’ve been use to those sudden changes for the last few years but this one is a little different. It seems this one I have some control over and I feel as if it’s all up to me. I’ve been praying about going back to school for so long now and I haven’t got a clear answer from God (not that I ever do) if this is the right move. I’m going off of how things move along, what my friends and father thinks. So far, everyone is thinking it’s a good idea but knowing myself, I seem to always seek out reasons to become anxious and nervous about it.
It was a good trip though. I stayed with Susan’s parents and had many talks with her mom. She’s awesome! She’s like a second mom to me, always seems to care about what I’m going through and is a great listener. We talked a good bit about me staying there while I go to school and of course, many conversations about Susan. I got allot of insight that explains allot about Susan! Nothing bad at all but really makes me realize how unique and special she is!
Well, it doesn’t look like Susan is going to call. She usually gets to bed at around 11 her time and it’s coming up on 10:30 so I guess I’ll go now.
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