More than a Show
Here is my attempt at sharing some thoughts and insights with anyone who wants to read them. I went to a Sara Groves concert last night and was very moved by the beauty of her voice and the wisdom in her lyrics, but more than anything I was moved by how real and open she was up on that stage. She shared pieces of her story with us, from humorous conversations with her kids, to her life changing experiences in Rowanda…and I felt it all. For the encore she came back out and spoke through tears about how real the presence of God had been in her life this past month….how the anxiety and fear was still present but that God was so real to her in the midst of it. She sang a beautiful version of “Great Is Thy Faithfulness” to end out the show.
But it wasn’t a show at all…it was a ministry of the heart and she left me wanting more. Wanting to be in the presence of God, wanting to reach out to hurting people, and wanting to somehow share pieces of my story too. It wasn’t long after the concert that the inspiration seemed to disappear. All day today I’ve been reminding myself of those things that I felt so passionately about in the midst of worship last night…I wanted to be more supportive and committed to prayer about Bobby and his team’s ministry to and for the people of Guatemala. (I have at times been less than supportive when it comes to sharing his time on this project.) I wanted to write to my sponsor children and pray for them more. I planned to write a letter to Aubrey in her baby book sharing with her the things I want her to always know about who she is and who God is. And I felt inspired to write a note on our blog, sharing whatever it is that God placed on my heart.
But even as I write now the inspiration is lacking. I’m left only with the discipline of carrying out what I felt God was speaking to me last night. But still, God meets me when I take a step towards Him, even if my heart is not in it at the time. Those mountain top moments may not last, but the wisdom in them is none the less true. So, this entry is nothing profound, but it is a piece of my story this week, as I felt God may want me to share it.
And not to worry, pictures and updates on Aubrey’s first birthday party are coming soon!
